Don’t be afraid

Don’t be afraid, this life pushes the worst things the best things to you. Love yourself enough to know the difference. Look into your heart and see the light, there is always a light. Maybe dim and distant but it’s there if you want it enough. We get buried by life’s crap, the stuff that doesn’t matter and should roll away from us. I say rise above the hurt as it is always just an anchor to our heart. Life is not always smiles and pretty pictures, but life is always worth love. So take a look around, see the beauty in the small things, the sink full of dishes that meant you had a dinner with someone else. The unmade bed which meant you slept in doors and the disagreement that meant you both still feel. See in yourself that the next day and the next and the next matter. Be strong enough to move even if you can’t see the end and know that with each step there is always you. We have the potential to be the greatest of the great, all of us. Let’s let go of the anchors, the past the doubt and lets love ourselves enough to be the best.
let’s make this time our time, our life… and let’s make it matter.

these dreams

Remember when we loved each other. The clouds were walking steps. A path to our dreams. Nothing would slow our love. Why now are we frightened. What will we lose by loving by giving by letting go. By letting the beat in our heart be the steps to each others souls. How I miss the touch of your lip. The sound of your voice and the taste of your skin. The darkness of these nights, these days... The loss of touch, the emptiness of heart. If only to walk in reverse would bring loves love back. I would navigate the end of the world till time mattered not. And you lived in my arms again. I know these thoughts but dreams, but you were always the sweetest of these, my dreams, my love.

dancing leaves

then you suddenly wondered, where will this trip take you... the sun setting on these golden trees, these aspens dancing their last leaf dance of this season. falling golden spirits of the day. i walk among you and wonder of the things you have seen. i hope you see in me, the happiness that being with you has brought me. in your winter slumber i will remember you and wait for our walk, our silent talk and and listen to the breezes song through your dancing leaves

I’ve always pushed the sadness of this day down. To not let, my then baby girls, know how much it seemed to hurt. We knelt together, all of us and prayed for the families and the fallen. 
I watched the empty skies of DIA, the lightless skies so empty, cold and lonely and called old friends. 
I wondered what would be next and wanted only to pull my family closer. Much like our great nation did, we

 were again one. To reflect, to remember I think is the greatest honor we can give. Our heartfelt emptiness of the day is a reminder of the loss and sacrifice paid by so many.
So to the fallen, the families and to our bruised but not beaten nation, I raise a simple glass in salute and pray for them, for us all and the future.

we

Don't you want for one moment, to love again. To let the walls come down and live and love for this moment. To taste loves sweetness, to see again the sunset in love to wake in loves garden and know, that in this, in this love, we will dance till there forever is no longer a dusk.My great dream will always be you,my love my me, hold tight to this us, this we, and in the end it will forever be you and me.

monsters

These monsters, these demons. There worse when you are here. These dreams of you, mares of night making dreams of fright, take these away these dreams of you these thoughts and pieces of you. Let me be let me free.

for my friend

For my friend...

Define yourself by the love inside... the love you give, the love you let in. We all have time to make more to give more, but live and love now... taste the salt of the lips you've kissed and savour the sweetness of loves taste...know that in this moment that the touch of your beloved is like breath to the soul. And know we love, we love so deep...

Suddenly I miss you...the soft touch of your skin, the taste of your lips, and the scent of your neck. Your voice rings in my being. I love you... This is what you said. I see the bluest ocean sent eyes and I wonder how you see me. Your touch reminds me that love and life exist.... you're not here anymore, you held my heart and let it go... 

Your smile sits on my lips and i miss you..