me

If only I could silence you,
 my heart,
 my me,
 my soul. 
 Sleep would come to me 
and the dreams 
of what have might have been, 
should have been,
 would not keep my slumber from me.
 I would not say your name in my sleep
 and I would not wake
 with your taste on my lips.
 My heart,
 my me,
 would not need the memories,
 the pictures,
 the we.
 If only I had no heart,
 and there was never
 a we,
 I wonder....
 would there have ever been
 a me... 

dance

What I want is for you to see me
to feel me

I’m here
next to the pill box and empty sheet

I’ve only asked for a smile
to know just a part of you

in this cold i wait

i wonder
why won’t you dance on my cloud…

let you go

Why won't you leave me
Why won't you leave me alone
Are you part of me
embedded in me

You're in every breath
And I wish I could expel you with a cough

You're smile haunts my thoughts
Trying to forget you it seems
Has become a task
Such as stopping the beat of my own heart

Do I need to cut you out of me so I don't feel
don't see
smell you

when will you leave me

why wont I let you go

note to you

my note to you... i know i haven't told you often enough how i feel about you. how knowing you has molded me. i want you to know that my life is better because of you and that i cherish every moment we have had and i hope for more. but if i have seen you for the last time, know that i will carry you with me, that our moments have mattered and in my heart and in my soul i will carry you wherever i go...

my end

And when I said I loved you it was not for that moment, it was until my end... And in my end, there will always be, you... my love, my heart, in me, my love, you will always be my end...

you lived in me

I miss you, my heart, my love
You lived in me you loved in me
Where did you go
My heart sings
 waits for you
the winter
our winter was the finest
We held each other In the cold
i want our winter in our winter
 we love again
 I want you in my winter