lie to you

I can lie to you

I can tell you

the sun still shines
but
she is dimmed by tears

I don’t think of you
unless I’m breathing

your voice but a memory now
erased now
the last voicemail you left

I can’t remember the color of your eyes
it’s the color of the sea that holds me

when I close my eyes I wish for you to disappear
you dance in my thoughts as if you were still here

there’s nothing left
a dream, a memory
I wonder
were you ever here