i say fall

I think one of the greatest things about falling in love is the uncertainty. The not knowing that nervous quiver in the pit of your gut that makes you aware of your fragility, we never really know where love will take us. It’s not mapped out it can’t be navigated or drawn out on napkins.

It is after all called “falling in love”, it’s not climbing precariously in love, walking slowly in love, it is truly falling. Every part of your being flailing, thrashing and wondering where will I land, will this hurt?

But to fall, you have to let go. You have to loosen your grip on the past and all the things that scared you toughened you. You have to give in to your heart and quiet the mind let go and just fall.

We build walls around our hearts to keep out the pain that we felt in the past. These walls do nothing but keep the pain closer, a constant reminder of the hurt. Like a cooler it keeps our once warm heart lonely, cold, and afraid. These walls don’t keep out the pain of the past, but only keep out the chance of loving, of falling.

I say fall, I say let go of the ropes that have you tied to the past. Tear down your walls and give in. Give it your all throw caution to the wind and let chips fall, we might get knocked down, we might get hurt, we might cry for what seems to be a lifetime. But I would rather feel pain for what seems to be a lifetime, to know love, to feel love, to be love, even if it were for but a moment.