to my friend

I owe you … an explanation, or I owe myself an explanation.…
We choose who we are…we all have walls, bridges, swamps, and oceans to cross…darkness has covered us all… we have all been in the shadow of our own worst fear…up till now.

This light you look for, we look for, it is in you! It is you! You are the light for a soul you have yet even met… you are you… the greatest being my God has yet created… you my brother my sister, my mate… you are God. You are all that God wants you to be… it is in you, you, you, you, must set it free!

To paraphrase Nacho Libre…”my life is good, really good”

Hearts break
The cold comes
The snow falls
Light becomes dark
We lose
We cry

Breath comes back
The sun shines
The snow melts
Dark becomes light
We lose
We die

“To this day I give, To you this day we live,” A.C. Brooks

Smile my mates, all of you… all of this, the fabric, the scent, the soap on a rope…but a casual conversation with you… your life, your surely to short, but most wonderful life!

My heart is grand… I seek not but love and compassion, I want but nothing more to be upon loves bosom and to feel loves precious heart and warmth next to me. Am I not you? Are we not all from the same beginning..? I have warmed to loves fire and been scorched by loves frost. But to love, to love, is but my Gods greatest gift.

You my brother, my sister, my mate…I love!

please be seated and put your trays in the upright position, this is all just a test

This morning,
grey,
cold,
winter known to us left alone,
left to wonder,
to wander,
to drift,
to stray,
heartless body,
broken,
defeated,
screaming for peace,
for something forgotten,
faint memory of concord,
child like reminiscence,
I yearn for your touch,
your taste,
your scent
wanting to find you,
to know you,
show me your winter,
hold in my heart the beauty that is you,
intoxicating smile,
enchanting eyes
the touch, yielding, innocent
the taste, sweat, pure
the scent, suggestive, hypnotic

wake me not from this dream of dreams,
lie with me, dream with me,
let me know the touch
let me know the taste
let me know the scent

Create with me our spring and let our winters pass…

this is all just...

a test, I am sure that this is all just ...a test…

taken away, this spirit, joy, and laugh

left are sorrow, strife and wrath

taken away are life, breath and bliss

left is dark, dark, emptiness dim…

the skin, this touch, the love of the lovers loves touch...

soft is the skin, soft is this touch

hidden is the lovers love, this forbidden sin

razor sharp it takes, it takes…sin

breath and blood not the sin

but my lovers love it takes...sin

me...my love, my sin it takes, my sin

oh deep is this forbidden life this wasted breathe this lifeless, this lifeless, lifeless life

oh cut deep and release this love this love for me

my lovers love, oh my lovers love

is not for me

this love I am sure…

is my life, is my sin

forgive me now...

I loved

I loved

You

My sin

Dark

Dark is this waste, this heart
This boundless void, this useless heart

Take away these dreams these plans
Replace them forever, grasping hands

Weak is my faith, my love, forever lost

Take not my hurt, my loss
My pain, my righteous reason to blame

These building blocks of me
This wall, I’m sure you cannot see
Your waves, your love cannot be

Cold now I sit inside, only me
You, your love,
Will never be

Broken is the heart I give, to thee…

Forever now, in this dark,

I am set free

Dark

this is surely a test

This evening’s grace,
Your skin, your taste
This evening’s slumber we sure will waste
To touch, to taste
Our hearts do race
Hands we hold, our grasp, our lace
This evening’s grace…
Your warmth
My place
This evening’s grace,
My love I do place

this is only a test

first kiss,
short it was but certainly sweet...
the taste of the wine, salt, shivering heat …
the racing hearts…

frozen moment in my lovers loves most uncertain task…
task not so deep, my lovers love I am sure runs deep,
quivering hand and slightest touch,
my lovers love, oh so salty, salty sweet…

this first kiss…
so very short…

my lost lovers love
how now
I do weep…

Here are 25 random things about me.

1.I am very shy
2.I love the rain
3.I love pillows
4.I am a sucker for a smile
5.I love my family more than they will ever know
8.I love to sleep with the windows open
9.I cannot stop thinking about my little girls (not so little any more)
10.I try to stop what I am doing to watch the sunrise or set
11.I love it when a woman bites her bottom lip
12.I want to meet my Marla (she knows who Marla is)
13.I write poetry but rarely share it
14.I love to be behind the lens
15.I love walking
16.I want to go to Seattle for dinner
17.I rub my feet together like a cricket to fall asleep
18.I would give more than I have
19.Without my family and my friends I am nothing
20.The wind through the trees on the side of a mountain, lull me to my slumber
21.I dont wear underwear
22.I sometimes give to much information
23.I find great happiness in cooking for my family and friends
24.I love that spot on a womans throat, that indent, wish I knew what it was called
25.I make a fool of myself