i wonder...

As I gaze upon the countless stars, their twinkle lit brilliance dancing across a vast infinity, to many to count, to much to feel, i wonder...
In just one moment, can one see me?

next to me

the sky
 moves white lit clouds against her black night veil
the moon grins, sublime
autumn’s  leaves scurry
 across darkened scape
rushing from springs young grip

shadows of past walk, waltz, wander
in this moons grin,
 they are all here
doubt, fear, regret

you’re next to me

your angelic blued eyes
closed to the nights end
my slumber’s last glace
my loves peaceful sleep

the world has stopped
together now
our sleeping hearts beat

we all have to dance

when things spin, and love faith and hope spiral from your grasp, know that we are here with loves anchor, and we will tie you to our souls and love will survive, prevail... nothing will take you from our heart... and in life's dance we will spin in love... don't be afraid, we all have to dance...

when you dream

What I said in every breath was true
when eyes laid
upon the beauty that was you
love filled me
everything that I loved
I see in you

my heart skipped
my skin chilled
and breath left

I dream of loves touch
your touch
so close
just out of reach

I see you in my dream
I hope someday
you see me
in your dream

i miss

I miss your lips on mine
I miss you giving in to my kiss
I wish your neck laid in my arm
my lips on yours
and miss our whispered words of love

your blue eyed glance
pearled white smile
and porcelain skin
how I miss your touch

how I miss our hearts skipped beat
together our silly
skipped dance

I miss your lips on mine
I miss your loving kiss

i say fall

I think one of the greatest things about falling in love is the uncertainty. The not knowing that nervous quiver in the pit of your gut that makes you aware of your fragility, we never really know where love will take us. It’s not mapped out it can’t be navigated or drawn out on napkins.

It is after all called “falling in love”, it’s not climbing precariously in love, walking slowly in love, it is truly falling. Every part of your being flailing, thrashing and wondering where will I land, will this hurt?

But to fall, you have to let go. You have to loosen your grip on the past and all the things that scared you toughened you. You have to give in to your heart and quiet the mind let go and just fall.

We build walls around our hearts to keep out the pain that we felt in the past. These walls do nothing but keep the pain closer, a constant reminder of the hurt. Like a cooler it keeps our once warm heart lonely, cold, and afraid. These walls don’t keep out the pain of the past, but only keep out the chance of loving, of falling.

I say fall, I say let go of the ropes that have you tied to the past. Tear down your walls and give in. Give it your all throw caution to the wind and let chips fall, we might get knocked down, we might get hurt, we might cry for what seems to be a lifetime. But I would rather feel pain for what seems to be a lifetime, to know love, to feel love, to be love, even if it were for but a moment. 

the kiss i missed

I can see the smile in your voice when we talk
I can see the sun dancing on your sky blued eyes
an angelic reflection of love like no other
your perfectly parted lips spilling the tales of your day

I imagine mine on yours
the one kiss I missed

you make me smile

I’m in my car and you in yours and this moment seems to slip by ever so quick

we say good bye

the sun is setting

I wish for spring
and the kiss I missed

number 4

I wish I could turn my brain off and go back to where you were in my arms. I wish I could taste that first kiss and feel your hearts beat next to mine. I wish I didn't promise not to pour whiskey on it when all I want to do is not feel. The true sorrow is being alone in this un known... Literally grasping for transparent strings to pull myself up.... In these circles we move, the not knowing hurts and carves the deepest... I just want to give in to love and live, and I want your hand in mine more than I want breath in my lungs..

blued ocean eyes

I miss your slow lip on mine
the quiver
the salty sweet taste of your kiss on mine

your blued ocean eyes dissecting my love
my desire
my yearning

your angelic touch
on mine

when the tears
 the fears
flow from my being
when I can’t stand to stand
and breath escapes

your whisper
your love
your words

return me

I love you

and in a rain soaked soul
I dance in your word
and in  your love

in your blued ocean eyes

I love
I love you