with only you

My empty arms
 filled only
 with dreams of you
grasp
at the empty space you leave
until you are again
 near to me
I dream
your hand in mine
we sleep loves slumber
dreaming our way
 to tomorrow
lofting on loves scent
I dream the dream of you
and in my dream there is only you
my one
my loving you
loving lips
 touch
loves sweet taste
loves day dreamed eyes
see through
my tears dismissed
my dreams end
again
again
with only you
hand held
loving
my one
my loving
my
you

without you

Sadness reaches from places we hide, the cold days of lost love live in every moment. The last kiss you hope to be the sweetest…fade. If only one more. in my dreams your lips succumb to mine. the taste of spring and life live on your lips… And yet I, I have yet to touch them…to live in a dream, to dance next to love, is my hell. How I want you, to love, to sing in my slumber and to wake in your arms. How I hold you, my love next to me to mine. So to sleep is my forever dream with you. To never wake without you next to me.To never again know love, without you..

your heart is for freezing

you didn’t deserve me
my love
I would have given life itself to see you smile

you looked at me as if I were a puppet a pest

you say I opened your heart
why couldn’t you let me in?

your heart is for freezing
for making cold the love of life that flows in nature

your snow white skin and stepmother grin tell tales of the coldness with in

take away now the nice things you said

see what you have made me to be

my thoughts of you now
seem a sin

at the end

help me to feel
to know each step counts
that a beat
that this beat
 matters
that the ray chasing my life in the cloudy sky
 is love
that it is you
that at the end
at the edge
that falling meant
you were there
will be there
that love
life
matters
that in my arms you will fall
and that in your eyes
I will always
see

 me
loving you

To Lance

To Lance Armstrong,

I didn't know where to send this, or even if it will get to you.
But its important to me that i write it...

I don’t know Cancer…
I don’t know that battle and what comes physically aft… 
god willing I will never know…
I've seen the broken hearts after
I've seen the grief
I've held the suffering and prayed for their families

do I believe you cheated, do I believe that you swallowed the magic pill to make you a champ?

I believe, that you made me believe,
that you danced on your peddles and asked and persuaded an entire community,
 be them riddled with cancer or touched by such, to not give up to try, to be strong, to do 
what it takes…. 

I am inspired by a flat lander, accused as a cheat in the sport I love. 

I will tell you this, that in the grander scheme of things… 
I would stand next to you 
will stand next to you

as you Sir 
have done a greater good than any bad

you have raised people above their illness, above a sickness, above doubt. 

and I hope in the darkest parts of your night you know that we all have to dance through the insanity, 
but for some, you have given a path and in that path… you have given light. 

and for that i hope you find your path...

I hope the band of yellow survivors you have challenged and gave hope to, relive and tell that story... because of you they have found their strength. 

God Bless and Livestrong

you let me in

a nights drive so far in dusk's last dance
dancing around your curious voice

you let me in

a slight touch lets me in and I know…. we know

you let me in

we laugh, listen and love…
your eyes dance in hidden tears and you push and pull

the same moon shines on our days and we love the same
with passion, conviction and desire

your touch plays life on my hearts strings and I wish for an encore…

you loved without even knowing…  

smiles

... smiles i think are the things i want, wanted the most from you, for you.  to see the clouds as your stage and the sun your spot... to live in the light love created.

your laugh would be our life's sound and with the loves beat, we would dance to the music in your heart.... our heart, and the sun would hover above my love, my loves beauty
 as she knew to not extinguish the light of loves delight
and in our slumber the moon would crave a place to live

sweet moon dance in the suns slumber and know
with every dream
my love
my sweet
lays with you …
and in the my loves slumber
loves heart is mended
and love again will smile

my love will again smile
smile with love

sometimes

Sometimes
in the sun
you bask in life’s loving ray

you wait for the breeze to take you
to take you away

Sometimes
you wish to be taken
taken away

to not breathe another day
to wish
to put this lifeless
life away

sometimes
sometimes you want this lifeless life
to blow away

sometimes
you want to not look
to not see

Sometimes
sometimes you want
this life
 that has been taken
taken away

to please
please take this
lifeless life
this meaningless
breath

please take it
take it
away

that was me

Hands clasped
a stifling gasp
why don’t you sing to me 

these any mores last forever

lips in sync
we loved love

oh wait
That was me

to be good again

I’m without words, perhaps really just the right words.
Suddenly I feel like a bystander. Lazy in my will, I have the greatest intentions, I have compassion, love desire… but do I have fortitude, strength and courage?

I’m saddened by this day, these days… so disconnected yet we are a post away from a kind word a prayer or a friendly smile. We pass one another without glance. Not realizing the chance of each other’s worth as another compassionate soul or a wonder bound being lost in the same cosmos…
we are all of the same father… yet we act as if we thieve the very air we breathe.

I’m tired of defending the idea that people are good. We have been raised in a “me first” generation.
In the big scheme of things… we are all the little guy.

I want my babies to see the good in people. To have compassion even when their day, their will is being stressed. They have the smiles of angels and they can light the world with but a grin and I am so proud of them all. They are truly my breath.

Where am going with all this?

My Grandmother Mary once said to me “Be good to all people, you never know who might be an angel”

I want to us to remember how to be good again….